I come from a long line of addicts, of all sorts, from heavy drugs to addictions to controle, men, and work all can be addictions. But what if youre addicted to a religion? can that be a bad thing? Well my husband and I have only been married almost 3 years, in that time, I got pregnant on our honymoon, struggled through HORRIBLE post pardom, mainly because i did not want another baby, but my husband pleaded with me and I gave in, and befor her first birthday my husband found out he had 3 clogged arteries and had to have heart surgery, hes been off work since then.
Now befor we got married, we were living together and he was a drinker, and a bad one at that. He had been drinking for about 15 years, one night he decided to thow my stuff outside while i was out with a girlfriend, and called my mother to tell me to come get my stuff, well my mothedr wound up comming to get it and i moved in with my girlfriend and we split up, about 9 months later, he came back around, putting flowers in my car, showing up at my work and begging me to come back to him, he said that he had been at his mothers in the valley and had quit drinking, and desperatly wanted me to come back to him, at first i refused, but then he constantly proposed to me over and over, I finally said what the heck, he had quit drinking so why shouldnt I give him another chance, so we got married.
Most of the first year i was pregnant and he was wonderfull, called me from work to check on me all the time, got me everything i craved and i was #1, then the baby came, she became #1, which i know is normal, then he didnt understand the post pardom but he did the best he could, and his mother stepped in to help with the baby. Then his heart surgery came, that snapped me out of a lot of the post pardom but i could not have truely got through it without Brook Shields book.
Now i know when you have such an experience such as heart surgery, it can make you re-think your whole life, as he has, well while re-thinking his life he turned to God, which is fine, i rather him turn to God than a bottle, but i got a question for anyone reading this.................he reads the book of mormon 24/7 he never spends any time with me he never talks about anything to me, when i ask him to open up to me he shuts down, our sex life is null and void, ive grown tired of him telling me 'no im reading the good book honey' we never go anywhere together and basically live seperate lives except for the one thing we have in commen the baby, now my question is, does it matter if its a bottle of beer taking my husbands time from me, or the bible? the way i see it is anything that takes time away from us, our marrage, our family, wheather its a bible or a bottle shouldnt i have the right to complain and plead my argument? everytime i try to explain to him that i need him, i want some of his time, he argues how can i be upset all hes doing is reading the bible, how can i compete with God and where do i fit in his life now.
Today he came home from church and told me that he was going to start going to other peoples houses to help them with 'teachings', i wanted to SCREAM HOW CAN YOU HELP OTHER FAMILIES WHEN YOURS IS FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS!!!!!!
