Messages By: jennyda

Woke up this morning, couldnt wait to get my day started. I am very excited about the step I have taken to change myself from the outside, and am working on tryingt o change my inside, too. I have been a member of Curves for a month now, and I my first weigh in is Wednesday. I am scared, and excited at the same time. I can't wait to see how much body fat I have lost. According to my scale at home, I have only lost four pounds. But I am aware that I am building muscle through my workouts. I dont want to be dissappointed this time, I want this to work for me. I am concerned about how Lance feels about this. I know he is worried about my health, and I think maybe deep inside he is wanting a picture perfect wife. He says he just wants me to be happy, but I wonder sometimes how he can look at me let alone have sex with me being over 200 pounds. I know somewhere in this fat mess is a thinner, healthier me. I just hope I dont let myself down nor my husband. That would just leave me where I have always been, fat and wondering how my life has gotten this way, and why I havent bothered to change it.