Messages By: nasale

I've decided to try to drink more water (blech peyoo,ugh) It's actually GRITTY!Gawd, I hate it! Now, I wanna bitch about the weather. It's so dang cold, that there's not a brass monkey for miles. Now I wanna bitch about my life in general. I'm overweight, the doctor says my health is not good (what the heck do they know-I hate doctors anyway)Life SUCKS!!

I'm back on track. No more chocolates, no more cake, no more Johnny's good stuff he made. (I'm getting depressed)(Sigh,) I don't really mind so much- I'm getting used to a different way of eating.To be really honest, I'm not sorry to be giving up some meat. Lean GR. beef-YUK! I'd rather eat chicken breast.I am SO THIRSTY! That's my big demon.

Dear Dr. Phil, Forgive me, for I have sinned. I ate a bunch of homemade baking and three chocolate bars. I drank coke and ate some more chocolates. I will atone later, but for now I don't think I'm done. I will take off the extra weight I put on in January.

I'm not very good w/ the communication thing. I have long moments of silence. What can I say? that's the story of my life.I haven't given up on my resolve to get this weight off. I know that it will be a long, on-going process and I'm not looking for the quick fix.It is coming off-I can feel it. I refuse to get into a battle with the scales. It would just be a constant reminder of how far I have to go and only discourage me.So, until I'M satisfied that I can look at a scale without dread, I'm not going to do it.Theexercise thing is a problem and will be until some of the weight is down. The strain on my back&hips is too punishing to feel helpful just yet. It will come-I have no doubt. :-)

It's been a while and I'm doing Fine!!!!!!!! I haven't swayed and I'm still as determined as ever to get off the lbs. It feels SO GOOD to feel the blubber coming off!!!!!I have a long way to go but the journey of a 1000 miles starts with the first step, huh? I will get there!!!

I still feel bummed out today. Too much thinking.I feel like I'm always trying to solve unsolveable problems. Dan's And SJ's problems are really bothering me. I feel like a real failure. Iknow they wouldn't be like this if I had done something about it.

I got a phone call from Dan. He was very upset.He's having problems with his moods again.He gets so angry at life in general. Gee, I wonder where he got that? It just tears me up to see him down like that. SJ is doing the same thing. I don't know what to do FOR them.We are all in the same mess to one degree or another.

I'm doing fine. had a couple of hip days, but I'm just looking at it like a gentle(and sometimes not so gentle) reminder what the goal is here. I don't get much exercise. I hate it when my back starts firing up.I will worry about it after I see Dr. Ekong&see what his thoughts are.I rather think that once I get the weight down, the back issue will be much less a problem. I'm NOT going to beat myself up over it. What's done is done. I can only correct the future.

For whatever reason, I am feeling very insecure today. I haven't a clue why. I've not had any troubling conversations with any of my family.I just feel awful.I've been coughing all morning. Maybe I'm coming down with something.What a turn down day!!

Well, I did okay food-wise.I ate a couple of eggs for supper, I had plain yoghurt and fruit at lunch. I had tea&two muffins for breakfast. i drank a couple of glasses of Crystal Light (approx. 20 cals) The arthritis in my hip is still bugging me but that's okay because it keeps reminding me of where I'm going if I don't lose the weight.