Replies to '12/15 Dr. Phil and Robin's Holiday Extravaganza, Part 2'

Quote From: amaes1941

Dr. Phil I love your show and tape you every day so I don't miss any shows.  I also tape Oprah's and I liked it when it was Tuesdays as you were always on there.  Since your show and seeing Robin all the time I think she is just as wonderful and also beautiful.  You have two great sons also.  The reason I will be so sad for christmas this year is because I just buried my beautiful daughter on Dec.5.  She was so successful and had so much more life to live and left 3 beautiful children 20,22.24.  One is in the air force,one in college,and one has his masters and is working at the college.  They are all still single so she will never get to be a grandmother.  She was only 48 and had a brain aneurysm which none of us knew that she had so it was such a shock to all of us.  She also left a husband who had been deer hunting that day and found her on the floor when he got home.  She also left 2 brothers and 2 sisters who took it very hard.  She had a beautiful home and loved to decorate it and had just finished the day before she died.  She had entered it into the Holiday Tour of Homes which people were supposed to tour in 5 days.  I am so broken hearted and can't  sleep and hardly eat.  This is so hard to understand and I keep asking WHY over and over especially at that particular time when she was home alone.  I know her spirit went to heaven and I should have peace about it as she was a christian but it doesn't lessen the hurt and pain and again WHY.  She was an organ donor so she saved several other lives.  She had invited me and  her brothers and sisters and the whole family to her house for christmas.  Now see why I will be so sad.  I went to church this morning but even that did not help ease the hurt.  She was the rock in my family taking over the position from me since I became disabled 9 years ago.  Our Pastor did a fantastic funeral service for her and even made us each a cd of the service.  I've always had a hard time getting over it when someone close to me dies , sometimes it takes years but this just seems so wasteful of a good life.  I can not comprehend it .  I know everyone says God knows best but right now I am upset with him.  I'm the one with all the medical problems and it should have been me not her.  She was so successful that she was planning on retiring within the next year or two and so was her husband.  I  guess I need to find some bereavement meetings to go to or something.  I cry all the time.