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Quote From: lindsayjay

I wasnt the most wonderful person in the world in highschool. I made bad decisions, and had a baby at the age of 18. She is now 2  and a half. Im not with her father, who was the source of my bad decisions. Im in college now. Ive been single for 3 years. Mostly just pushing people away because I'm terrified of getting hurt like I was before. I had been with my daughter's father for near 3 years. He was going down a path I couldnt follow. He turned to sex and drugs, blaming  it all on me because I decided to leave him. Truth be told, when I was expecting my daughter, he would always promise me he would help me buy her things, but when it came time, wouldn't have the money, but a week later, have plenty for video games and toys and such. He had bought me an 'engagement' ring. He said he had spent all his money on it. I found out that he had lied, and only spent 30$ on it. I found this out by going to the place he had claimed to have bought it from to get it sized and they told me not only did it not come from them, it was fake. I decided that his path was one of poverty and pain, not that money is the most important thing, but the ways he choose to spend what little he had was not what I had seen for me, or the baby I was expecting. Now, I've turned from that, I live with my mother and father, who have pulled me through.  I'm in college, and shes older. I've met a guy I'm very attatched to. He's black. I'm afraid I'm going to have problems not only with my daughter seeing him as a father, but my family accepting him. I have never been so impressed with a guy in my entire life, and I want to be with him. I've mentioned him to my mother, and she was very detatched. Now I'm afraid I'm going to have to choose. I love my family, and my daughter, and would never do anything to hurt any of them, but my heart is aching. Someone please tell me what I should do, Im completely lost.