Kayla Keep strong...He was not a loving person and probably will never be...He is a selfish person with some mental health issues... You have every right to know why he ran, why he stayed away and paying child -support is no excuse...
Kayla you will be a wonderful parent and have many friends who love and support you ?... I hope the answer is Yes...
Do like I did Adopt a parent one of your friends who you love and admire who has a Dad you have respected and admired... Any man of character and moral would be proud to have another wonderful daughter...
My father commited suicide when i was 18 due to a closure of his plant...My oldest brother who raped me was lost like your dad for 20 years when he came back home it was because he had Hep C and AIDS and then commited a crime to end up locking in the prison I worked at...ya talk about old wounds festering and me facing how do i forgive? I couldn't, still can't He died and My Mother who always stuck up for him still to this day says to forgive him...he was on drugs , he was abused...how can one forget? or forgive? Time ?...it has been many years I was 13 and he was 15...
I am 43 now and yes I went to counseling...many kinds I am a grown woman I tried to protect my daughters' from him to which I did but there are other monsters out there... Kayla BE PROUD BE STRONG you will be a BEACON for others..I AM and that is my way of healing...