Hi Luyten,
Wow, sounds like you have tons on your plate, as in, lots going on. So, do you work for Telus? They are picketing all over
Edmonton
. I hope it turns out best for everyone.
I have been overweight just about my entire life as well, so I am not sure what it will be like to be thin again. My problem is when I was in my early 20's I was stalked and he just about got me, and I was really pretty, now if I lose the weight, I am about 70 lbs over, my fears may come back full force. I think that is one reason why I stay heavy, it is "safer", no one bothers me. But yet, on the flip side, I stay single, I have no emotional connections with anyone except my family and friends, which is definitely not the same, I am in a rut. I have been on my own, no children, one dog, for 3 years now and I am use to it, but I really don't want to grow old alone.
So, I have to face my fears, so I could have better body image, and of course then it would improve my confidence and self image, and be and feel happier and healthier. It is just so hard, I am finding it difficult to commit to a health routine of exercise and eating healthy. My habits are so bad, my internal talk is so negative it is difficult to change that. Do you have the same problem? If so, have been able to manage it, can you give me some ideas.
I need support and this seems to be the only place viable for me as my family wouldn't be the kind of support I need, all my friends are thin, married, have children and their lives are full.
Take care,
Jackie