Topic : Addiction Support

I went to Hazelden this past year and had private insurance.  They do have scholorships for people  that have financial need.  I was addicted to prescription pain meds, and also have a diagosis of major depressive disorder, anxiety, and insomnia.  The people at Hazelden addressed all areas and have psychiatrists ,and counselors available 24/7.  I went to the center in MN.  I attended a 28 day program and have been doing great (they saved my life).  They also have 90 day programs for people who need more treatment.  I would love a reply and hope for the best. 

I was also addicted to oxy, percocet, vicodin, fentanyl, ativan and ambien.  All were related to back surgery.  My insurance would not cover all of the treatment but I contacted Hazelden and they have programs for people without insurance.  I think they have full scholarships depending on the individual.  I was lucky as my parents wrote a very large check for me to go there.  My husband and I are raising children and just didn't have the funds.  I am happy to tell you that after 28 days of inpatient treatment and 8 weeks of aftercare in my hometown and twice weekle AA/NA meetings I am doing great.  What a difference in my life.  Best wishes to you.  Please let me know via this site how you are doing.

i just need some structure and help if i don't get help soon i don't know what I'm going to do?  i am so close to being homeless in fact if i left the man i am with i would be homeless so right now that is not an option for me.  i don't have anyone who cares whether i live or die but maybe my kids and they are pretty much done with me too.  I'm hooked on pain pills due to migraines and not wanting to deal with the hell i made out of my life i need to be in a treatment program with structure so i can be a productive human being.  i have no money at all i just had a 6 pound tumor removed and the pills got to be a huge problem and now i am on methadone so i can afford the meds. but i want off of it and all drugs but i need help i don't want to keep living if this is the way I'm stuck living please help me before i end u homeless or dead please please please i have watched Dr Phil for years and i need his sternness to get to the bottom of my depression i have been depressed all of my life i cant even remember being happy for any length of time only for a moment here and there please please please does anyone care my family sure doesn't and its not like i have stolen from them and they are tired of that my drug problem has not lead me into criminal activity only self destruction can anyone please care enough to give me a chance to be a mom before they hate me too please I'm begging anyone for help please

hey you i feel the same way you do about the methadone and i too have no one to talk too if you want we can help one another i am a 44 year old woman who recently went on methadone due to pills for pain and now i feel trapped on the stuff pls feel free to email me and we can help each other if you like kariegrass@yahoo.com contact me anytime

for both of you..I am a 39 yr old female previous methadone user .IT CAN BE DONE

don't let anyone tell you it can't...now that isn't to say that you won't have a bad day here and there or somedays you will feel better than other...but that's ok...as long as you are decreasing you are makin progress...whether its 2 mgs a week or 8...progress is progress. I started methadone to get off of pain medication...however while on it, I paid attention to how my body felt..not my head that said oh you might need more and more...I started on 30 mg a day ( our clinic starts everyone on that) and I went up to 80 in a matter of 2 months...HOWEVER I felt no different on 80 than I did on 30 so that started me thinkin why on earth was I even driving 60 miles round  trip on top of these gas prices for something that obviously wasn't doin me any good and possibly causing more issues if I continued it long term, so I made up my mind to start comin off of it. My counselor wanted me to take it in percentages..I was on 80, so my first decrease was 8 mg...which was fine..then I went down 7 then 6...usually did a drop every 7-10 days...I never dropped more than 8 at a time and never any less than 5...at 13mg I STOPPED...completely..that was almost 2 months ago and I am soo happy I did...I have NO desire for pain meds...definately NO desire for the methadone...I just don't miss it...You will hear all kinds of horror stories...and usually it's from someone who has been on methadone or something for a LONGGGGG period of time...don't believe everything you hear...it's not always as bad as it seems. I know each person is different and each person has to go at their own pace...but remember YOU are in control....you decide how much you want to decrease, if they aren't..there is an issue, take it up with the nursing director at your clinic, or the dr., they should have at least one dr on staff. I know alot of these clinics don't want you to come off of it, it's taking money from them...too bad...it's not about them, it's about you...if either of you need to talk...email me: brown_eyed_blond08@yahoo.com

I went to treatment in Sept for addiction to opiates and now my DR's feel like methadone is the med I should be on for chronic pain.  Any info about methadone I can get or the effects is greatly appreciated.  Thanks so much.

Well my fears have come true, my brother is here at my mother's house.  She believes in giving him a chance like she says she given to us but we didn't do drugs.  When we first knew that he was coming home we were going to take him to the new directions here to get him checked for drugs well my mother said that we shouldn't do it because of his child support that he owes that they will find out that he is here and go after him.  So he has been here since May 11, 08 and we don't know if he is clear of drugs.  He says he can't go anywhere because Dawn will know that he is here, but he can go to a bar and walk around here to get his cigarettes.  My mother says that he will be going to the VA to get all of this done and I say we will see it when it happens.  But I don't think that they will give him a pee test to see that he is off of the drugs.   He can drink beer for him to relax he needs that so he says.

 

He plays everyone here if he doesn't get his way he says that he is leaving he has done this once and my mother went crying because she didn't know what she did.  He didn't care what he did to her.  Just a ploy to get what he wanted control! 

 

He has a job but he doesn't pay a thing here.  My mother says him to get up on his feet.  My sister is leaving for Iraq today for her stay there for 6 months and she has asked mom to babysit Maggie (her granddaughter) while she is gone.  Suppose to be leaving July 9th and my brother is suppose to be out of the house because I have told my mother that I can't live with him.  My mother wants to back out of what she promised her daughter because of my brother that he isn't ready to be on his feet. 

 

My mother gave him from 2001 to 2007 just about $14,000.00 and she said that she was going to tell him about the money that she gave him but to this day she hasn't done it at all.  My brother doesn't know what money he took from mom because mom was always there for him to bail him out.

 

When my father passed away my brother was suppose to get the guns, which he did for awhile until he tried to sell them when he was on drugs for drug money.  My mother then got the guns from my sister and told her son that she sold them to someone and gave the money to him.  My father told my sister that if he was on drugs that he doesn't get them.  My mother said your father didn't tell me that.  Anyone who has a right mind would not give someone who is on drugs guns don't you think??  Now my brother made a comment while being in this house that he wish that he could buy back the guns and of course my mother told him the person who we sold the guns to had sold them already. 

 

Do you think that my brother could ever pay back my mother for all the money that she has given to him, I don't think so because he is only looking out for himself getting a vehicle and a place to live but no giving money to my mother and she won't say anything to him only to me.

 

I have to take everything from them both so I guess I will have to find someone to talk to because I can't handle what my brother throws out at my mom and I can't handle what my mother says about everything throwing in my husband's side of his family.  They both blame everyone.  She tells me that I have to let it go but how do you do that when I dealt with him when on drugs, dealt with her when he pulled things.  Its his house I shouldn't be here. 

 

I need something I need someone to talk too.  I need to speak my mind where he is concern not concealling it because it may push him over the edge.  He wants to take us out to eat but what about paying my mother back??  It doesn't even enter into his head.  He needs to stand on his own feet he is 50 years old but mom was there when the tickets were paid instead of him going to jail.  Mom was there when he forged those checks because she paid for him to be out of jail and not go to jail.  He has never stood on his own feet because mom was there to bail him out.  We were an enabler and still are. 

 

I need help in releasing my thoughts or otherwise it will make me mean.  I need someone to talk too!!  I need help.  Please help.  Barbetta Reedy

I know where you are coming from when you say migraines.  I have been on every drug out there for them until I found Imitrex pills and shots.  What the drugs do to you is that you have rebound headaches they don't help you take more and more to get rid of the headache.  If you can start looking for a program that helps people on drugs sometimes you can find meetings that help with the drug problem.  Even talk to a minister they maybe able to help you get the help that you are needing.  Even find somewhere to live if you need to get out of that house.  In some states there are homeless shelters that will help us being female. We have to take it upon ourselves because I know what it like when you want to take your own life I went threw that with my migraines because of the pain that I was in because the drugs didn't help.  Sometimes you have to look for God because you don't want to because of your children.  I didn't have any kids but something stop me to put that gun down.  Talking to people may help too.  If you need to talk I can listen.  Please for your kids sake talk to someone they don't need to hear about you killing yourself.  It will hurt them in the end.  They will have that void in their lives.   Barbetta R

Some books that are helpful for those dealing with addictions and/or abusive situations are listed below. They can be found at libraries all over the US and they can be found online used at Amazon.com for about $8 including shipping, sometimes less.

 

Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyers

Breaking Free by Beth Moore

 

For marriages or relationships that are troubled:

Love and Respect by Dr. Eggerich

Divorce Busting by Michelle Weiner-Davis

 

For more information on all kinds of issues including the inability to lose weight, depression, addiction, anger/rage, etc Demonology and Deliverance available at bennyhinn.org

 

www.family.org

Focus on the Family - 1 free phone counseling session per year and an excellent referral locally 800 A FAMILY or 800 232 6459

 

Copeland Ministries

www.kcm.org

1 800 575 4455

Free magazine - Victory Voice

 

Daystar Prayer Line

1 800 329 0029

Can leave message and receive call back

 

Benny Hinn Ministries (Miracle Crusades & Conferences)

1 800 433 1900

www.BennyHinn.org

 

Life Today Ministries

www.lifetoday.org

1 800 955 0777 prayer line and donation line for building wells & feeding children

 

Joyce Meyer Ministries

www.joycemeyer.org

1 800 727 9673

Free magazine - Enjoying Everyday Life

 

www.PeterYoungren.org

24 Hour Prayer Center 1 800 275 2713

Can leave message or get call back

 

www.cnb.com

1 (800) 759-0700

The Prayer Club 24 hours- usually someone picks up

 

DeLandlighthouse.org is a church that has had miracle healings and breakthroughs for the last 5 weeks and they have a prayer line.

 

There is another church in Lakeland Florida that has been experiencing a healing revival for nearly the past 2 months now EVERY DAY - it can be seen online via webcame live.

 

Prayers requests can be sent to my email under my profile. Addictions are under a spirit of bondage & addiction. Illnesses are under a spirit of infirmity. According to Jesus, those filled with His Spirit will be able to cast out demons and lay hands on the sick and they will recover in Jesus name.

 

Heather

 

John 10:10

The thief [Satan and his demons] comesonly to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it overflows).

 

There is NO ONE & NOTHING, no doctor or man made method, that is more powerful than the blood of Jesus in regards to healing mankind. And there is nothing PERMANENT like a deliverance from the Lord.