Topic : Bipolar Disorder

Yeah, I happened to see that just a bit before the message boards were up. I didn't exactly send in my story, but did send in a reply saying that I thought they should do a show on bipolar and why etc. etc. I think it's a great idea. Hopefully if enough of us respond there, and we get that letter in, something will come of it.

 

Kalie

You're WHY post definitely put a smile on my face. I think things may actually start looking up and easing up for me soon. Keep your fingers crossed for me :)

 

Don't worry, I understand you're frustration with the board. You've shown many times before that you care, so I don't worry about that.  (Although I do tend to be paranoid and afraid of rejection which is really showing with my roommate right now LOL). I don't know if there really is any advice anybody can give me on how to fix things, since a lot of it is out of my control. I've tried to do damage control for my roommate as much as I can as far as the cops and CAS is concerned. I know she can be a good mom. I do however wish she'd get rid of her new boyfriend, which she is getting more serious with. Again, tonight he crossed the line with me. I actually called my neighbour to come over. I think all I can do is ride things out. Once I get my meds back (hopefully some of them tomorrow) then that will also help things. Glad to hear you've signed up for that show too. I haven't heard any response from them at all, but they do say they don't respond to everyone.

Kalie

Sorry to hear you're having a rough time of things right now. I know how it feels. I've been in a severe depression for the last little while due to everything going on. Also after her boyfriend left, my roommate locked herself in her room and basically didn't want to talk to/see anybody. She didn't see why I'd be upset since she's the one who's had her children taken. I don't think she realizes the hell I've been through. This left me feeling really rejected, even though I know it probably wasn't me (she'd just received a phone call from her son which did not go very well I guess)  and try to remember the hard time she's going through. I try to convince myself that I'll get through this like everything else, and have done plenty of whining and complaining. Sometimes I really don't think I'd care if something were to happen to me. Keep your chin up and remember, there's always a brighter day ahead. When I got home from blueberry picking my roommate was upstairs and we actually talked a little (not as in discussing anything, just actual words were exchanged.) Take care of yourself. You need and deserve it.

 

Kalie

Looks like many of us are feeling under the weather. It is easy for misunderstandings to happen and people to be easily hurt, especially with us bipolars. I know that I am extremely oversensitive right now and it is affecting things with my roommate. Glad to see that you came back and clarified. Helps relieve any hurt feelings caused by misunderstandings.  Hope that you are feeling better soon.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hey, I'm having fun with actually being able to post pics. Could never do that on the other board as I didn't know how.

 

Kalie

i have a bi polar child that was misdiagnosed for years.finally at 15 he was diagnosed they said he had adhd what a crock

 I always just say "it's morning, because i'm not much for GOOD MORNING, LOL

The heart strings are tightening for me with Matt gone.  We had a discussion last night on the phone where i basically denied him to stay here until his new roommate/apt opens up.  It is so confusing and difficult on Lorelei and it is very hard to see the internal damage children get from a parent coming and going and just feeling the tension and pain.  It hurts me so VERY much to tell him NO i can't help you when i know he has nowhere to go.  Its a 5 day spread, but i have been THERE for him for 3 years whatever he needed i gave my own needs a back seat and i cannot do it anymore.  My life is down to being a 31 year old woman with  a two year old child to raise all on my own.  I cannot describe the anguish and despair, just for not being able to DO IT.  To keep my family together.  I feel like someone took a grave digging shovel and hollowed out my insides.  I PHYSICALLY feel scraped out and like there is an awfully painful vacancy there.  Matt and I were soulmates in a big way and then we grew and changed, only not together  and now we are not.  Not anything. 

So enough about me, there really arent words to describe what i am feelling.  I can only shove through the dull ache, fears and sadness.

Kalie, man I am so sorry you are in a pile yourself.  It was not long ago when i could not afford my meds and i was a mess and you were so sympathetic.  I feel for you VERY MUCH.  What meds do you take?  At least themost important ones?  Maybe there is "somebody that can help somehow..." on the board...

The CAS stuff and all that is just ugly, and it surely is dragging you down. It sounds like a very unhealthy situation for you to be in,,,,, i cannot say what you should do, but if your roommates boyfriend is causeing YOU pain and stress I can't think of anything good about it...

Tammy: thanks for reaching out. 

Faith: I seem to be on the rollercoaster you are on, i feel like it willpick up by tomorrow.  ;)  Maybe a little green man with "pouchy lips will come along... LOl

JENN: I am still waiting for mY PURPLE PILLS, LOL and i see you are thinking of me, as I am you, its just very hard for me right now to really accomplish anything.  I WANT to try to submit for Dr Phils show.  It is actually a GOAL in capital letters i hopei can find the drive to look for it and sign up or whatever.

KATHYDREAM:  I am ashamed to admit i am jealouos of your lortab, i could use a happy pill right now, something to stop me thinking and aching.  Not physical ache, but did you know lortab help with heartache too? LOL  It is not funny to jopke about your pain meds, and i never take any pills or anything, but i was remembering the days... when there was nothing a pain pill or 5 wouldnt fix.

Not so anymore.

Hey!  I'm ok!  don't I always say that?  I have sold my baby's crib so i can buy food and diapers.  I have also gotten 2 local recurring jobs doing cleaning for some elderly or disabled people so i have that.  I had advertised to take on child care but not really wanting to  do it.  I like to keep my stress level low.  But i will do what i have to to keep my child in comfort, and so will MATT,its just financially desoalte for him right now having to comeup with large sums of $$ just to move out and get a place, like i said we are working together, so the child support will come as he can afford to live himself and pay me as well. 

It's morning.

;( Beka