Topic : Fears, Phobias and Anxiety Disorders

Hi,   

I'm not sure if I'm in the right message board. I see things and always have. But now there starting to scare me. Some people know but others don't... These thing don't always scare me though. Like when I was younger, I was only afraid of one and I would scream. But now there is a few I'm not thrilled about and one (Not sure witch) Speaks to me in another language. (I'm still in high school and studied spainsh, latin, french, and my personal favorite German.) I can't Identify the language but I still hear it clearly. I also hear bells.   

Now, I've talked to a trusted adult friend. He's always willing to help me. He said that the bells could be produced my the ear itself. But that a language is something the ear can not create. The one thing that frightens both him and me is the little thing I see that appears tangible and moves quickly. I have seen it move and run, and stand up. He says it might be a rat. (I have owned pet rats and know how big they can grow BUT this is much bigger) This thing can compress itself and squeeze into and through tight places. The figure I see I just fell into denial and said it wasn't there. Eventually I didn't see it anymore. The other one is human like. I've seen it move once, but other wise it fade into the wall when I look at it.    

I did find out why I was seeing some of the things (odd reflections on a part of my collapsing roof) but the other things I still can figure. He suggested that I use a blind fold and ear plugs when sleeping. If I still hear them it must be in my head. If not then it is an outside force. He also recommended going to a psychologist. But I'm am still afraid of my mind and that something is severely wrong with it.  I can't find a person close enough and I refuse to go to my mother's facility.   

Could someone find a good solution? some advice?  or facility close to me I can go to?   

I have a problem. I worry all the time. I worry about everything. Even if there is nothing wrong I feel worried. I worry about my kids constantly.I'm afraid I'll get into a wreck if I drive. I also am afraid that people are talking about me or looking at me. I get embarrased for no reason. I hate being the center of attention. My face turns red and if someone says something it gets worse. I really don't like myself. I'm shy but only because I get so nervous and embarrased. I love to talk to people, but out of nowhere I get all embarrased . I feel like I have a mental problem. I don't like confrontations. The doctor prescribed xanax for me and it helped but then I just didn't care about anything. I could do anything and I didn't care who it hurt as long as I was happy. I made a lot of bad choices, I know they were my choices but I really feel that if I had not taken the med. I would have thought before I acted. I no longer take the medication and I am back to worry and embarrasment and nervousness all the time I would really like help with this.  

Hi everyone,    

It has been some time since I posted on this message board, but I thought it was time to do so again.    

I have offered two free CBT courses on line, and am in the process of setting up a support and therapy chat room.  The course has proven to have been most helpful to a number of people suffering from anxiety and depression.     

These courses were free.    

For more information click on my user name "pinetree".  This will take you to my profile where you can see other postings I have made and also my e-mail address should you chose to contact me.    

Bye for now, Pinetree   

Hello there.  

I hope to be working with and helping people in the future who have been classically conditioned in a negative way. This means that they have learned to draw a negatively associate to simple every day things.  

Eg. Many of the people I want to work with will have been conditioned to show a fear, or anxiety response to such simple things as colors, white, red, pink, sounds, pens clicking, bells, keys jangling, coughing, sneezing, or simple actions like snapping, clapping, etc.  

I hope to be working with people who have been classically conditioned via a new and growing phenomenon called gang stalking. It's almost unheard of, but it's very wide spread in society and part of what happens to targets of this phenomenon is that they get sensitised to simple stimuli over time.  

The targets are choosen for many reasons, many seem to be single woman, minorities, outspoken people, whistle-blowers, dissedents, or people who have made the wrong enemies, or gone up against large corporations. The targets once choose are in an endless cycle, with the goal being to distroy their lives and livelyhoods. Many are driven to suicide and never realise they have been targeted for this type of harassment, which can last for years.  

Parts of the harassment includes slander and noise campaigns, 24/7 survallence and tracking of a target. Sometimes their homes are bugged, or phones, or computers monitored.  

The idea is to seperate a target from friens, family and their community at large, then to make them seem crazy or unstable, via the classic conditioning. Many of these targets have breakdowns, get institutionalised, or commit suicide. Other who are lucky enough to survive or just not believed because this is still so unknown. The same way stalking was unknown over 20 years ago.  

Many people get invovled with gang stalking and it's known to be happening in many major cities across, America, Canada, and the UK.  

There have been some supports group started to help these people, and awareness is growing, but it's an uphill battle and that's why I wonder if anyone knows how to best help people who have been been sensitised because of this? 

If you want to learn more you can do a quick search on google for gang stalking, cause stalking, vigalanty stalking, organised gang stalking,  even flash mobbing.