I am grateful that I found a psychiatrist that is on the list for Austin Center for ocd 
which is the group her therapist is in and also is listed on my insurance. They won't have 
an appt. time until Oct., but I am willing to wait. I worried about meds so long but since 
school started last Tues. my daughter is getting worse. She has been having more meltdowns 
and it is so hard for me to discern disciplining her for behavior that is really hard to be patient 
with and ride it out knowing it is the ocd. Tonight was really hard, she has outbursts of shrill 
screaming to just losing it and spitting at her brother and impulsive and sometimes destructive. 
Her normal personality is very sweet and carefree and creative and loving,but her mood changes 
so fast when she's triggered by even just accidently touching me or something, there are places 
in our house where airspace is contaminated and she can't walk through it or go near it. We are doing cbt therapy,but since school started she is just so stressed she hasn't been able to do her 
work. I hope and pray that we can find the right medicine and she can lead a happy normal life. 
The stress in our home doesn't help either. Her dad is obsessed w/ building his chopper motorcycle 
that both my kids have come to me and told me that they don't think their dad cares about them 
or loves them and when I try to communicate their feelings he reacts very rageful and defensive. 
I have been on the abuse message boards awhile back because of verbal abuse from my husband. 
I am also in therapy and seeing a psychiatrist for things from my past and my presenst situation. 
I am feeling very overwhelmed with all that is going on but I have faith in God that whatever 
happens He will fill me with the grace that I need to do whatever I need to do. I'm probably 
talking too much so I should close this post. I am grateful that I have good friends, a good 
therapist, a caring psychiatrist and a support group of women at my church. I just want my family 
to be o.k. and to know the right things to do to make that happen.