I have read all the stories of the other women that have been abused and i put my little story forward as well. I can relate to everyone of their stories from mother of 5 to beatinut50 as i have been what they have been through even though it was not in America but in Australia. When i first met my ex husband in mid 98, he seemed gentle, loving, caring and thoughtful and of course he showed very little of what he really was, a control freak, a manipulator, psychopath, sociopath and a sexual deviant as well as a liar, a cheat, a jekyl/hyde complex.
Chap2phil, we are not crazy, stupid or value less of ourselves. Before i met my ex husband, i was outgoing, energetic, popular and just enjoyed life but after i married him and had our first child things changed. On our wedding day, he allowed some people to do horrible things to me for our pre wedding celebrations as i was 4 months pregnant and i left that night which was before our wedding and then when i confronted him about their behaviour the next morning (one was his eldest son from a previous marriage and the other one of my bridesmaids) he said he would sort it out and it would never happen again, 8 months into the marriage he started to change, he started bringing men into the marriage without my permission and threatened me to do what he wanted them to do to me otherwise i would lose our eldest son who was only a baby at the time and then it turned into our other children whom he would use to manipulate everything and this continued on and off, he pimped me out while i was pregnant up to the 2nd of our children until i made sure it would not happen again but still without my consent or knowledge brought men into our home with our children around and threaten me with them, my family and threatened me with my life.
He did it in a way where the men he brought in did not know about his abuse to me, but a few found out afterwards when i told them when i asked them to leave when he was out of the room , he never got them around again because i told them what he was doing, so he went (as i found out from police) on the computer to find more men and lied to them to get what he wanted.
I have already said before what he did to me and our children. He cheated on me on our 3rd wedding anniversary with a prostitute and thought it was alright and justified why he did it when i found out after he arrived home 6 hours late after doing some cattle transport, he said to me that i could do it but i said no as i was not brought up that way and i was also pregnant with our 3rd child. I left the marriage for a week and tried to get away but i could not, i had no money, no back up, no one to turn to for help as he was making statements and threatening to take me to the police for kidnapping our 2 children even though he was committing a crime against us and threatening to ruin my eldest son who was in another country. This did not stop him committing adultery behind my back, i even confronted him about this as he found them on the internet and i caught him doing it on the computer one day and found out exactly what he was saying about me and other things to them about me. It hurt but i knew i had to get out. The batterings, pyshical abuse got worse, the verbal abuse got worse but i tried to stand up to him as much as possible, he was like a fat lard and he knew how to abuse them when they didn't do what he wanted them to do.
He attacked my mother when she visited and then she knew what was going on and started to help us leave and then finally i met our last nanny who helped us as my parents were still in another country. In early dec 2004, i got the police to come to our property to get the kids, the nanny and myself out as he was not going to let me leave with the kids and i needed to protect my kids but it was a fight after that, proving that he was the liar and what he had done to us, within 2 years everything i had told them came to reality when he admitted indirectly when he said and did to us and that he was bi-sexual and that he would do anything he wanted and nobody was going to stop him and what he had done to me by his sexual deviance behaviour and nothing was going to change, he was going to continue to do it, and still he walks free, that is Australian Law for you after everything he did to us, no justice for us.
The police heard his threats to me when he rang them after i told him i had spoken to them and threatened me when i wouldn't tell them everything was alright but the police officer heard and he testified for me against him within a short time we were taken out.
When i left in early dec 2004, the police didn't really totally believe me, the courts didn't totally believe me, the councellor for the court did not totally believe me because he was telling them i had bi-polar, i was fantazing, that i instigated the whole thing as he already had a conviction of doing one of the major crimes which was pimping and profiting from his first wife and he didn't want that to come out, he didn't want the courts to know what he was, the police knew but they didn't know everything, he tried to make out our marrriage was perfect, but it was far from perfect.
I found out by the police that he had been trying to organise a hitman to get rid of me and make it look like 3 scenerios 1. It was an accident 2. That i just committed suicide 3. I just left the marriage and the kids (which i would never do) as he was setting up the scene in our hometown to people and lying to them to make out i was something else but they did not believe him as he wanted to get rid of me because i was no longer submissive to him and i was starting to fight back with a vengenance so it had to look like he had nothing to do with it and that i did it and this was all planned when i was away visiting my family in late 2004 just a few weeks before i left the marriage and that he was arranging it after i came back from visiting them but when the police seized our computers a few weeks later and found it on our computers and warned me and kept a close eye on my whereabouts by having someone follow me after they found out what he was trying to do. They had seized the computers due to information received from a witness regarding his pornographic activities on the computers involving our eldest son where he showed him homosexual and hetrosexual sex acts as well as on dvd's. He used the computer for all his acts of crimes.
I was treated as if i was the criminal at the beginning even though i was not because he was denying everything but that soon changed within 6 months when his behaviour started to show through, he even verbally attacked his lawyer at the courthouse when it didn't go his way..
I went through councelling to help me deal with all the abuse to myself and my children and even still i do not trust men completely. My kids because of what he did to them are having to undergo severe trauma treatment to help them.
A word of advise, i know it is hard for people to say what you should do and how you should do it, but i have been there where others have been, please what ever you do, remember if they are doing this to you and say, i will change, it will never happen again, i love you, and anything they have to use against you, PLEASE GET OUT, get out for your children, get out for yourself. They will never change, it is all an act.
Become free again, it is worth it, than living with abuse and your children living with abuse. I know that it is scary but it is better to be safe and alive, than dead. It may seem like a lonely road and a scary one at that, i know, i have been there, we had no money and i was lucky we had a house in town to live in that our company owned, even though he tried to have us kicked out of it but the courts stopped him doing that, otherwise we would have had nothing, that is what he wanted us to have because i didn't do what HE wanted. He wanted to financially break me so i would give him the kids because he was keeping the money but i did not allow that. Leave, it is not worth it for you and your kids sake.
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