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August 29, 2005, 7:57 pm PDT
I've been there myself
Quote From: cncloveI AM 32 YEARS OLD AND A MOTHER OF A 12 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER. I JUST GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE AND I WORK FROM HOME AS A MEDICAL TRANSCRIPTIONIST. I WATCHED TODAYS SHOW AND I FELT LIKE I WAS WATCHING MY LIFE ON TV. I HAVE BEEN ADDICTED TO PAINKILLERS NOW FOR ABOUT 3 YEARS. I TAKE ABOUT 16 PILLS A DAY. I COME FROM A FAMILY OF ADDICTS. I HAVE NEVER BEEN ADDICTED TO ANYTHING BESIDES CIGARETTES. I GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT AND MY DOCTOR PUT ME ON VICODIN. I DO NOT EVEN DRINK OR DO ANY OTHER DRUGS. I AM IN CHRONIC PAIN EVERYDAY. I CAN NOT EVEN GET OUT OF BED WITHOUT TAKING 4 PILLS FIRST THING IN THE MORNING. I HAD A FRIEND WHO WORKED FOR A COMPANY WHERE HE HAD ACCESS TO UNLIMITED AMOUNTS OF PAIN PILLS. AT THAT TIME I WAS TAKING 30 PILLS A DAY. WHEN HE COULD NOT GET THEM ANYMORE I WAS SO AFRAID OF THE WAY I WAS GOING TO FEEL. I WAS UP FOR 5 DAYS STRAIGHT GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWS. I MADE IT THROUGH THE PHYSICAL PART, BUT THE MENTAL PART IS WHAT MADE ME GO BACK AGAIN. I WAS SPENDING A LOT OF MONEY ON PILLS AND ALMOST LOST EVERYTHING I OWNED. I NOW GET ENOUGH FROM MY DOCTOR SO I DO NOT RUN OUT. I WANT SO BAD TO STOP TAKING PILLS AND BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH MY PAIN, BUT I AM SO SCARED OF THE PHYSICAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL WITHDRAWS. I HAVE A WONDERFUL FIANCE WHO COMPLETELY UNDERSTANDS WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. I AM ALSO IN THE PROCESS OF A BIG CUSTODY BATTLE WITH MY EX. I LET MY DAUGHTER GO VISIT HIM AND HE NEVER SENT HER BACK. I HAVE TO FLY UP TO MAINE ON SEP 28. I DO NOT THINK THAT I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS HARD TIME WITHOUT MY PILLS. I DO NOT WANT MY DAUGHTER TO KNOW ABOUT MY ADDICTION. I JUST WANT TO STOP TAKING THEM WITHOUT THE PHYSICAL WITHDRAWS AND BE ABLE TO COPE WITH MY BACK PAIN AND MY TMJ. I HAVE NO INSURANCE AND CAN NOT AFFORD TO GET HELP. I REFUSE TO GO TO A METHADONE CLINIC BECAUSE I FEEL THAT YOU ARE SWITCHING ONE DRUG FOR ANOTHER. HOPEFULLY SOMEONE CAN HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!! I totally relate to you and to Stephanie. I had a 2 year long percocet addiction. Interestly, I went to Florida Detox, which is only 3 hours from where I live. This is the facility that Dr. Phil sent Stephanie too. I had the opportunity to meet Stephanie while I was there. We detoxed around the same time. I happen to know that she has been clean for about 4 months now. I, too have been clean for 4 months. It is so wonderful to have my life back. I honestly feel better now than I ever have. Trust me, the price you pay to get clean is far less than the price you will pay if you continue down the path that you are on. I was at a point in my life before detox that I simply could take no more, I had to do something, I had to get help. Thank God I found Fl Detox. I have not had one single craving, or one temptataion and I no longer have a drug controlling my every move. Please check out Fl Detox website and do whatever you have to do to get the money together. Borrow it (which is what I had to do), beg for it, whatever, but you have to get help. It is not something you can do on your own. Whatever you do, DO NOT GO TO A METHADONE CLINIC. While I was at FL Detox, I met many, many people who were detoxing from Methadone, (my sister detoxed from Methadone too) If you think you have a problem with Vicodin - Methadone is much much worse. The people that were there detoxing from Methadone had done exactly what you just mentioned. They thought they were doing the right thing my going to a clinic to get off of some other drug, then were then addicted to the methadone. It is much harder to come off of and the withdrawals from Methadone are severely worse than Vidodin. Check out the website www.floridadetox.com. Feel free to call there and ask to speak to the nurse - she will spend as much time on the phone with you as you need answering questions, etc. The entire staff there is absolutely wonderful. Please do something or you WILL end up dead.
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Being a single mother is hard enough, but imagine juggling soccer practice, PTA meetings and homework ... all while trying to cover up a secret life. Susan is a single mom with two kids who works as a prostitute to pay the bills. She says she's never had a real job in her life and is addicted to the money. Can Susan say goodbye to her dangerous job and turn her life around? Then, Stephanie's a single mother of four who's been hiding her secret for 12 years. She's addicted to painkillers and takes 60 times the recommended dosage just to make it through the day. Fearing for their lives and the lives of their children, they both turn to Dr. Phil. Share your thoughts here.
