Topic : 06/30 Addicts Transformed

I am a mom of 3 18, 12 and a 4 year old with a lot of special needs.  I have been drinking on and off for years.  I have suffered from depression since I was 14 (I am 36 now)  I am so scared.  I want to quit drinking for my children and myself.  I am just so afraid that I will not be able to deal with life since I ended up in a hospital for my depression. I know that it is a poor excuse for me to say I drink to control my depression..I am so scared that my 12 year old is reaping my horrible actions and my 4 year old deserves so much better.. I am ready to get help!!!  I just don't know where to turn.. I don't want to be the person i am ... I don't remember the other person that i was except that I was afraid of my own shadow and I couldn't go out of my house.. Alcohol has made me cope. I am a good person but I can be a wonderful mom if I just knew how.... It all starts around 6 pm alcohol gets rid of my panic attacks and makes me so social.... BUT When 11 or comes I get angry  I don't scream or hit but I just loose it because the alcohol is telling me that I have to be in control and I am not... 

My husband knows how I feel but just disregards it because I take care of the house and the kids... 

He must know I tell him I don't want to be like my grandmother and father... obviously it is in the family.... I have 5 brothers and 1 is very mentally ill and the other is addicted to any drug... I just want to be okay..... I just want to change my life.... My children deserve a healthy mom... But what do I do??
Quit drinking ? GO back to being so depressed???  Any suggestions?? I really wish Dr Phil could help me..... Be real it is not going to happen.... Sorry all just watching to many Dr Phils!!  

Dr. Phil LOVES kids and he also knows the history on his guests before they even make it to the show. Apparently the little boy NEEDS to be medicated and has received good and professional treatment; that's why it did not become an issue on the show. The big guy is not dumb, so relax and stop worrying.  

Congratulations on your own son; it appears he turned out beautifully with the help of a dedicated, dedicated mom. God bless. 

Every community across this country offers ANGER MANAGEMENT classes. They are offered because the criminal and family courts often make the classes mandatory for people accused/convicted  of crimes. But the classes are not limited to those who MUST attend. Call around and find one in your area. Often the classes are offered on a sliding scale, so even the poorest person can afford ($) to attend.  

YOU must take control of your situation. You have identified the problem and ONLY you can change your circumstance. Do it for others, but DEFINITELY do it for yourself. You deserve to be happy and you will NEVER attain happiness unless you are emotionally healthy. God bless and good luck.  

First and foremost, you are endangering her children if you allow her to continue to care for them. As a grandparent and as a HUMAN BEING, you owe it to any child to protect him/her from possible harm. 

As a former parole officer, I have had to deal with many METH addicts along the way. It's the scariest drug I have ever had contact with. One of the people on my caseload died after raising a shotgun to several police officers. It took many bullets to bring him down and kill him. The saddest part is that he WANTED to die. After years of meth use, his life was in the toilet and he didn't care about anything. Your daughter may not be at that point now, but she may someday arrive there if she continues using meth.  

Again, it is your DUTY to protect her children. Take them from her and don't give them back. I bet she doesn't want to involve the law so she wouldn't dare report you. However, if she did, she would end up in court and the court would then insist she get (and prove) treatment.  

If you love your daughter (and I'm sure you do), you won't enable her because she's just hurting herself (and possibly your grandchildren). She needs INPATIENT treatment (some centers will take users for up to 18 months). Call around. Some centers have space for those who can't afford to pay. Contact social service agencies in your area to find out who can help. Contact law enforcement to see who can help. JUST DO IT!!! And don't wait.  

Your grandchildrens' lives are on the line. Even if she loves her children, she shouldn't be responsible for them at this time (and I think you know that). God bless you all. 

I am mother of 2 wonderful children, 18 year old son and 15 year old daughter. I have rised up my son but my daughter is in childrens custody and I meet her very rarely. Why? Because I am addict. I was 22 years old when I started to use drugs and I had very wild 5 years with it before I gave my life to Jesus and only that way I could kick that habbit.  

What was said so loudly with my old friends was, that once you are a junkie, you will always stay a jankie. There is only two ways to kick that habbit: death or belief in Jesus.  

Little I knew how really devastating was junkie's life. How one kind and heartly girl turn to very bad and hot temperament monster who knew what she wanted and managed to do all what she wanted to do only because my father is rich and thanks to him I don't have crimminal record. I haven't used drungs for very long time, but this I know loud and clear; I can't ever think that I am cool with drugs.. no!... I am always addict.  

I have two cats and also I have allergies. Last week I got medicine called Duact here. In that medicine is some efedrine. When I took those medicines to have some help to my allergy symptomies, I noticed that there were something also what makes little bit same feeling than amphetamine. When I noticed that it was efedrine, I was scared. How can doctor, who really knows that I am addict, write to me such medicines? I can't play with my addiction.  

I had to give those medicines to my husband that he keeps them so that I can't eat them more than I should and only for the symptomies, not for funny.  

You see, being addict, it is life long struggle against all medicines which bring any addiction. It is very hard to admit to oneself that you are never ever in the same line with another people which haven't used drugs.   

Beside amphetamine I used also heroine and some other drugs.  

Parents which have addict children, you are welcome to ask from me some questions if you have any, I reply as well as I can.  

I wrote this because I know how deeply loved ones addiction hurts. I want to lend my hand to all of you if you need it. I am whole hearted believer and about addiction matters I can give some help. I am Finnish-Swedish women, so I may write in funny way because English is not my mothers tongue, but I promice to do my best.  

What I want to say to everyone, everywhere is: YOU ARE NOT ALONE. There are someone who really cares your daily problems and wants to help.  

God bless you all.