06/25 Addictions

ADDICTIONS
Posted by: littleheav
Posted on: 2004-01-27 10:25:27

I,M A ADDICITED AND I NEED HELP.
I feel your pain
Posted by: misty3374
Posted on: 2004-01-27 15:48:48

Hi i am a mother of 2 beautiful girls and i am a housewife, I am hear to talk to you if you want to talk you can email me and i will listen, I to am an addict although i have stopped using prescription pain medication. Even if you are clean now you are still an addict. I knew if i didnt get off the pain medication I would loose everything that was dear to me. I didnt want my children to grow up seeing their mother strung out on drugs and I most likely would have overdosed because my body was getting to used to the normal dosage that I was taking. If you want to talk leave me your email address and I will talk to you.
Misty
re: I feel your pain
Posted by: cher32
Posted on: 2004-01-27 16:42:35

I have been addicted to pain medication for 3 yrs now. I have gotten off of it before but then had to have a major surgery, and started right back up. I feel like I dont know how to stop. I guess I'm scared to stop. I would like to hear what other people where addicted to and , and how many a day they took, and see if they succeeded.
Addiction
Posted by: lindzer84
Posted on: 2004-01-27 22:11:27

Hello, well todays show reminded me of a very good friend. She too, was addicted to Vicodin. She went in for major back surgery, and took a vicodin after surgery. 2 days later she died from organ failure. Her daughter was is my best friend. To watch her go though that because of a self centered addiction was horrible. Can you imagine putting your 16 year old daughter through that? It just gives you an insight of what it can really do to you.
Such Courage These People Show!!
Posted by: loisko
Posted on: 2004-01-31 00:49:47

I have to mention that all these people who have told of their addictions are so courageous! Really, not too many people are as brave as these. Due to their great stories, heaven only knows how many people have been helped to the nth degree. I am sure these people will get the rewards they so justly deserve!!

Posted by: misty3374
Posted on: 2004-01-29 11:57:51

I know what you mean by having to have surgery and starting right back up on the pills, my drug of choice was lortab 10 or lorcet 10 anything with hydrocodone in it. the very first time I started I was up to 10 pain pills a day and it was so hard to get off them i was so sick. It took me 2 weeks to finally not go through the withdraw symptoms. I fell and hurt my back and ended up with buldged disc's and spurs on my spine and I started taking pain medication again and I had a doctor that was writing me 50 lortab 7.5's every two weeks. well there was another doctor in with the doc i was seeing and he said that was to much pain medication for me to be taking so he started cutting me down to lortab 5's and then the next time I saw him he took me down to darvocet and I eventually stopped going there because I knew he wouldnt give me anything and I started buying them off the street. Keep in mind I am a house wife and a mother and I was going to dealers and buying them and I live in a small town so everyone knows each other and my husband eventually found out and gave me the ultamatum to either stop or leave, I knew I needed to stop so I did. I have been drug free for 28 days today and I cant say I dont think about the pills because I would be lieing to you and to myself. But I know if I dont keep it together I will loose my husband of 13 years and I will loose my children. I feel guilty for the time I lost with my husband and my 2 girls. I just know that now I can make better now.
PLEASE READ!!
Posted by: tcur1798
Posted on: 2004-01-29 14:58:27

Please read my post to Cher32 on this date if you cant find it, e- mail me..at tcurrey@labyrinth.net... if you did read it let me add..I tried at various times to quit on my own. I had all the right reasons the same as you...but I had to have help.. and by the way I think I know what you are thinking or will be thinking, I am different I am stronger, I thought that too, dont make the same mistakes I did. Take the shortcut, get into some outpatient conseling. Check into some resouces in your area. find a Narcotics Anonymous group. Only by listening to other share there experience, strength, and hope can you make recovery less difficult. There will be times when the support you get from your family will not be enough. I really do know.
sober&free
Posted by: codykristy
Posted on: 2004-02-06 19:09:47

Dr. Phil I missed the show I have read the remarks on this site. I've heard a lot of excuses reasons why people have chosen not to get sober. I started drinking at 16 and felt immediatly that, it was the answer to all of my problems, it removed my fear insecurities and filled that whole in my got. I went from alcohol to soapers, to coccaine, to shooting up morphine and any thing else I could get my hands on. I eventually ended up on Crack for 4years, sold everything I had, lost my house and finally lost my daughter. I wasnt ready to get sober yet And I just whined about not being able to get sober. I remember the night I just said OK God I.m yours, I'll do anything it takes to get sober & get my life back. It's got to be something you want to do with all your heart and soul. I was in Detox for a week because I was taking Benzos
along with everything else. I was a nurse at that time, I called my work for the first time I was honest about myself, and by the grace of God the held my job for me.
That was 8yrs. 5mos. ago, and today I have a woderful life, with a wonderful relationship with my daughter, my greatest gift in sobriety. Today I am nurse on A Detox unit in a Hospital, I see people every day, with all kinds of excuses. I can tell you, Heroin & narcotic addicts feel like their going to die, but they don't die.
Alcoholic & benzo withdrawl is very dangerous, phyasically. We have had 3 addicts die on the streets from over dosing 0 from detoxing. Addicts din't like pain
sober&free
Posted by: codykristy
Posted on: 2004-02-06 19:15:44

Dr. Phil I missed the show I have read the remarks on this site. I've heard a lot of excuses reasons why people have chosen not to get sober. I started drinking at 16 and felt immediatly that, it was the answer to all of my problems, it removed my fear insecurities and filled that whole in my got. I went from alcohol to soapers, to coccaine, to shooting up morphine and any thing else I could get my hands on. I eventually ended up on Crack for 4years, sold everything I had, lost my house and finally lost my daughter. I wasnt ready to get sober yet And I just whined about not being able to get sober. I remember the night I just said OK God I.m yours, I'll do anything it takes to get sober & get my life back. It's got to be something you want to do with all your heart and soul. I was in Detox for a week because I was taking Benzos
along with everything else. I was a nurse at that time, I called my work for the first time I was honest about myself, and by the grace of God the held my job for me.
That was 8yrs. 5mos. ago, and today I have a woderful life, with a wonderful relationship with my daughter, my greatest gift in sobriety. Today I am nurse on A Detox unit in a Hospital, I see people every day, with all kinds of excuses. I can tell you, Heroin & narcotic addicts feel like their going to die, but they don't die.
Alcoholic & benzo withdrawl is very dangerous, phyasically. We have had 3 addicts die on the streets from over dosing 0 from detoxing. Addicts din't like pain
vicoin
Posted by: viviansolo
Posted on: 2004-09-05 17:11:40

I had two surgerys and have became addited to vicodin I am trying to stop. I have been sick for 6 days. what kind of withdraws did you have and how long does it last
please. I was taking 6 day
please help
viv
I need help.
Posted by: hotmama175
Posted on: 2004-09-13 17:24:28

I need help I have been married for a month and a half. I found out that my husband was addicted to Pain pills and had been to jail after we got engaged, I knew he drank on occasion and about a week of being married he came home smelling like smoke I had confronted him several times before and before we even started dating I had told him I don't date people who smoke jus for the fact that I don't like the smell and I also have a two year old daughter and I don't want her around it. But anyway I guess the drugs are not in his past he has recently been caught stealing pain pills from his grandpa. He has became distant to everyone, he sleeps all the time, he doesn't want to do anything but sleep and drink beer, he has recently lost his job and we ended up having to break our lease for our apartment, we have had to live with his family for the past three weeks. I have mentioned divorce and as much as I don't want to I think it might be the only way to make him realize that he isnt just hurting himself he is hurting everyone around him. I don't know what to do please I need help.

Posted by: poodahpup
Posted on: 2004-11-20 16:23:49

6 pills a day after surgery is not a lot. it's the ones buying them on the street that give them a bad name. "pain," from surgery, injury, etc. ARE WHAT THEY WERE INVENTED FOR! a lot of people have addiction confused with DEPENDENCE. the difference? addiction is where you use them for no other reason than to get high. dependence is where you use them because your doctor feels -- or agrees -- that you NEED them to function in the real world. the amount of time you take them depends on your pain -- some people have chronic pain that never goes away! it is a proven fact that people that are in pain DO NOT "get high" on pain killers. the medication merely puts them at a comfort level that allows them to function as a human being. please go to the site, "the national foundation for the treatment of pain at PAINCARE.ORG. there, you will find people that are in your same situation. don't let ANYONE (including dr. phil . . . he is NOT the "last word") tell you that you are an addict because you are taking pain medication for legitimate pain. until this stops, the entire country suffers. they make you feel guilty and worthless. it has happened to me. i don't care. i suffer from 3 diseases scoliosis, and have endured cancer twice. i guess i should just "suck up" and take it -- i mean after all -- why should i take something to help me feel better?? wrong! if i need and and my doctor agrees (buy them on the street? i wouldn't even know where to begin!), then that's that. i have 3 kids to care for. they need me functioning -- not lying in bed. emails welcome. there is nothing wrong with being PAIN FREE. PAINFREE.ORG!
ME TOO
Posted by: needhelp27
Posted on: 2004-01-29 13:14:48

I watched Dr. Phil today.......it was like the whole show was directed right at me. I just sat glued to the TV the whole hour......and truly got a lot out of it. I am a mother of 2 girls, and very addicted to pain meds. Have been for going on 3 years now. I to have to have at least 15 pills aday to even fill like I can function at normal capacity. HOwever, unlike the women on the show. I can admit I have a problem, I know I do, and want to quit so badly. However, no one knows of my problem. I think they suspect something is wrong, but cant quite point it out. I dont have the heart to break the news. I know I need help, and badly want it. I realize I hurt my family everyday anyway by doing this, so I should just do what I can to fix it. It is hard. I have tried to quit on my own, and it is difficult, I didnt evne make it a day, the longest I went with out taking any was 7 hours, and I was very proud of myself. I guess it is hard for me to face reality sometimes, and when I take these pills, I dont have to think of it.
inthesameboat
Posted by: hardwoman
Posted on: 2004-02-01 14:34:17

I have been on this twice just reading everyone elses comments. I wanted to be brave enough to write. It's hard to write it out and see it in front of my face. I also am a stay-at-home Mom of 2 children-my son is almost 5 and my daughter is 2 1/2 yrs. I feel like I have to take pain pills to just function through the day. They make me enjoy my day and enjoy my children. I don't feel like I'm a good mother without them. I wake up some days when I'm out, and think to myself that I'm going to take control of my life back today, and have a good day with my kids without having any 'help'. But then my kids start fighting or I see a huge mess in the house, or my husband is in a bad mood, and that's all it takes to make me forget my plans. I'm starting to feel like I'll never get to the point where I ever want to be without them. But it's such a hard habit to keep up with. I don't know what to do anymore, and I have no one to talk to that understands about this. I'd love to have someone that knows exactly the emotions and feelings I have.
I'm in your boat
Posted by: lostgirl30
Posted on: 2004-02-17 10:58:21

I would love to talk to you in a private setting. I know exactly what you are talking about. Can we somehow exchange e-mails privately?
I can relate
Posted by: urjmgfs
Posted on: 2004-06-25 14:58:32

I too am addicted to painkillers. I am a 51 year old woman, I have two grown sons and a wonderful husband. I work full/time and I am a supervisor over 12 employees. I have been taking pills for quite some time because like you, it gives me the ability to cope. My problem is that I try to help everyone and solve everyone's problems and when the stress gets overwhelming the pills are the only thing that makes me feel good about myself and helps me to cope. I was molested by my father and turned to drugs when I was 18 years old. I finally found a wonderful husband and have been married for 26 years. The trouble is I lie to my husband all the time and for things that I don't even need to lie about. I feel like I have to make everyone happy and make everyone's life perfect and by doing that it leaves me drained, tired and irritable so I've taken painkillers to put me in a good mood for my family. I take approximately 20 to 25 painkillers a day. I drive to work and function at work and no one even knows. I've gotten to the point where they don't work anymore so I've started drinking and hiding the bottles from my husband and boys. I feel like I'm in a black hole and can't get out. I've tried many times to stop, but when I try to it doesn't feel normal and I'm at the point where I don't know what normal really feels like. I know my husband is aware of the pills but he chooses to look the other way because he doesn't want to make me mad by confronting me. I'm at a loss at what to do. I know I need help but I'm embarrassed and afraid.
I know, been there, and am still there
Posted by: delopa47
Posted on: 2004-06-27 12:08:44

I have been addicted to some kind of pills for many years. I'm almost 50 years old. I never thought when I was younger that I would keep this up for so many years. My family hates it. I'm divorced for many years. I do not know how "normal" feels anymore. But, I do believe strongly that only professional help can help you or me. I did that about ten years ago, but I didn't keep working at it like I should have. I was doing better until I was in a car accident 6 months ago and now I am in a lot of pain everyday from a broken neck. But, I still feel deep down that there has to be a better way. So, try rehab, it will work if you put work into getting better. Especially if you have started drinking also. Of course, I need to take my own advice. Being afraid and embarrassed is O.K. But, if you look you are not alone, most people are afraid and there's no reason to be embarrassed to get help. Good luck.
You sound just like me!
Posted by: laurie9503
Posted on: 2004-12-11 10:10:34

I'm just a few years younger but I have been on pills for 12 years and started drinking and doing drugs at 13. I am 46 now. I don't know how to get off them either. It is amazing how many people are responding to this. It may be a condition in which you have to accept. I've had lots of tmj problems from eating disorders which led to a $40,000 dental procedure to have porcelin caps put on all my teeth from bulimia. The pills helped me cope and continue to do so. I have now found new fast acting chewables that are not bad for my liver..because my theory temporarily is do what you can to get through till your chance comes. La Hacienda is where Dr. Phil sent that other gal but they won't say how much it cost! Keep me posted about you too okay? Maybe together we can think up something.
been there
Posted by: carvelli_1
Posted on: 2004-06-26 11:09:19

Dear Hardwomen:

Yes, there is life after Vicodin. I was up to 30 tabs a day sometimes. I can't believe I actually lived through that. As time goes on your numbers will increase too. Trust me you can NEVER get the high you are looking for. I too thought I couldn't function with them. Your mind can play some cruel tricks. It is take several months of severe withdrawal. You can't sleep, eat, or even walk very far. Get into a re-hab, or go to an AA or NA meeting. I felt I didn't belong there too. They teach how to deal with LIFE not just your addiction. Admitting you need help is the first step. You are afraid NO one will understand. You have to have help with your kids. Taking care of two little ones and going through this will be impossible. I will always be an addict, but all I can remember about the whole affair is how bad it hurt to get off. I couldn't imagine going through that over and over again. The power over something that at one time was all I thought about is great.Let me know if there is anything I can say or do that will help you.
IM ON YOUR BOAT ALSO
Posted by: jodilosh
Posted on: 2004-06-29 10:42:34

I read your message and couldnt believe it, it sounds like my life and yours are exactly the same.I am a mother of 3 and my days sound just like yours i am a great mom when i am on pills without them i am in bed If you would like to talk email me at jolandi6 @aol.com I would like to talk to someone who can understand. thanks, jodi